I've been having this feeling lately - for the past 2 weeks to be exact - that sinking feeling like my world is going to change drastically in the near future. I've had similar feelings in the past - like 2 hours before my grandmother died (me in Maryland, grandma in Utah) I just had this feeling that made me start crying without a clue as to why. Then again, I also had this feeling when I was living in one of the ghettos of Baltimore and my mom was visiting...and nothing happened.
This time it's more of a "when is the other shoe going to drop" feeling along with a what if this happens - what will we do? I don't like feeling like this. I won't say that I don't like surprises, it's just that I have grown to sort of dread them because I never react the way I know I should react to them... it's always sort of an afterthought well after the damage is done where I think, "Oh - this was a good lesson." or "I really could have handled that differently and not hurt so and so..."
If hindsight is 20/20 what is foresight...nearsightedness?